Something New

Ok, just a short note to try something new. What's new? Using my cellphone to post this blog. Yes I'm a nerd and haven't done this before, lol. Definitely not going to be my main form of entry for sure. Way too time consuming.

15 Years

It's been 15 years since my Dad has passed away. Wow, can't believe it has been so long. Sometimes it seems like it has been soooo long ago, and other times, it seems like it was only yesterday. I still miss him, especially when there are certain occasions in my life. Daddy never saw me get married, will never mine and David's kids, and will never see another family holiday. He has missed so much. He was only 44, and I was only 17 when he died. Seems so cruel. And at the time, he seemed so much older. But I have friends that are around that age, and they don't seem as old. I guess maybe because he was my parent he seemed so much older. Here are some pics that were taken not too long before he passed away.

Thoughts of the Day

Here are some random thoughts of the day, based on things that have been going on in my life.

1. My husband is the best! He is understanding when, even though I'm not working right now, I tell him I am tired, and he doesn't complain that the dishes weren't washed.

2. Modern medicine can be a serious lifesaver. When you wake up at 430am and your jaw is killing your due to TMJ, you start thanking God for painkillers.

3. Friends are great! They are there for you when you need them. Especially when you realize you took your only pain pill for your jaw, and what are you going to do after that, and they come to your rescue with meds in hand.

4. Teenagers now, or a least a lot of them, need to be brought back to reality with a firm, swift kick in the pants, or a bell-ringing slap to the face. Especially when you are old to enough to technically be their parent, and they have the audacity to speak to you like you are inferior to them. I hate to break it to them, no matter what they think, neither they, nor Mrs. Gray are a plethora of knowledge.

5. Suicide is a selfish, selfish act. You hate yourself and your life so much that you want to end it all. You do, and by doing so, you leave family and friends with permanent questions and scars. This may sound harsh, but get over yourself, pull yourself together, realize that no situation is permanent, get some balls and deal with your life.

People are just snots sometimes

I've pretty much come to terms with the possibility that David and I may never have biological children. But even though I've come to grips with this, it doesn't make it easy when people are acting like snots. And snots is NOT the word I want to use, lol. I have a 'friend' that just insists on rubbing my nose in my infertility. And she is not ignorant of the situation. She knows fully about our struggle. So her asinine behavior isn't due to ignorance. When we go to a store that would have baby clothes, such as Target, Walmart, Belk, or any similar store, she always wants to look at the baby clothes. Mind you, she has no children of her own, and will never have any. She had the chance at children before, but decided to abort, then had a miscarriage, and then a hysterectomy. Karma?? I digress from the story.

The friend and I, I'll call her Kathy, were in Target this week. We were walking down the back main aisle, that takes you past the baby items on one side, and the household textiles on the other. I'm glancing at a comforter while walking when I hear the dreaded sound. "Awwwwww! B, you just gotta come and look at this!" I politely, but firmly, tell Kathy, "Nope, I'm not looking at baby clothes." Her reply was, "but you just gotta! It's too cute!" My response is to ignore her, glance to Heaven and say "Jesus", as a clue for God that I needed divine intervention to shut her up before I physically did. Did she get the clue when I refused to veer her direction? Did she get it when I refused to even look at her? Did she get it when I got a little louder with my last plea to Heaven? Nope, she didn't get it. Alex Trabec didn't have enough clues for this girl obviously. And what made it worse? In my attempt to ignore Kathy, I couldn't very well plug my ears without looking like a crazy person, so I did hear her running commentary. And what bothered me about the ESPN style rundown of the clothes you might ask? Well, it was comments like "I know y'all are trying and all, but if you finally ever have a baby, then I'll have one too." No, Kathy, you are NOT going to be a surrogate Aunt of our miracle baby when it comes. You are about to become the parent of an appendage that I've broken off in your rear.

Pet Peeve of the Moment

Now, we all have friends that we've had for years. Some of us have had friends stick around for 15-20 years, or more. My best girl friend on this planet has been my besty for 27 years. Yes, 27 years. We met in kindergarten. We've also all had friends that came for a time period in your life, and then left for whatever reason. Not that they weren't good friends, just not meant to be lifelong ones. What ticks me off is when a friend that you've had for over 15 years just seems to have feel off the face of the planet. The last time you've spoken with them was November, despite the phone calls, texts, or wall posts on facebook. The most you get back is a comment on the wallpost. Bah, whatever. You can't tell me that your life is so busy that you can't be bothered to drop an email or a message on facebook. It's like when their life is good, you don't hear from them, but when their life is going down the proverbial crapper, or there is some serious family drama, they are calling you up looking for support and backup. Well, you know what? I'm tired of being the 'backup friend'. If you don't have time for me, well by George, I'm not going to make time for you when you need it? Sound fair? If it doesn't, maybe you are one of those friends.