Well, my temps went right back up after that massive drop. I put in the same temp for tomorrow that I had today, and it gave me 'possibly triphasic'. I should be getting seriously excited about it, and in a way I am. But...I'm just not feeling it. Part of it was the stark white bfn I got this morning. Yes, I know 10dpo is still super early. But I'm super crampy, yeah I know it could be a pg sign too. And, I just don't feel pregnant. I just don't feel it. That may sound stupid, but I have it in my head that when I am truly pregnant, I will know. Plus, based on over 2 1/2 years of big fat negatives, what is the need to get my hope up? I know it will happen when God wants it to happen, but I guess I'm just not on the same time zone as He is.
That stinking bfn this morning was made even harder by the fact that I had the most wonderful dream last night. I dreamt that I peed on a stick, a Dollar Tree one to be exact, and it almost immediately came up positive. In my dream I remmeber freaking out and looking at it several times to make sure I wasn't seeing things. Then I just started crying and was sooo happy! Then I wake up, test, and realize, yes, it was just a dream. The seemingly unattainable dream, that just seems barely out of my reach.
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