What If?

What If??

What if 'my time' never comes?
What if I wasn't meant to be a Mom?
What if my only children are furbabies?
What if I can't ever have that question answered?
What if my womb stays forever empty, never to be filled with life?
What if I never have the blessed experience of bringing one of God's miracles into this world?

What if I have missed my chance to be a Mom from conception to adulthood?
What if I never have to clear off the front of my fridge of all the drawings my children have done?
What if I break down in the middle of Target baby section? Again.
What if I become some embittered that I completely lose myself?
What if my desire becomes my demon?
What if my desire is my downfall?

What if my Mom never gets to see her grandchildren?
What if my husband never gets to look into the eyes of our newborn child?
What if I can't teach my little girl how to cook "like Granny taught me"?
What if my husband never gets to show our kids the firetrucks he risks his life using?
What if we never have a family picture of us and the kids at the beach or the lake?
What if we have no one to teach our hobbies?
What if my brother never becomes an uncle, and my sisters never aunts?

What if God doesn't give me the answers?
What if my 'what ifs' come true?



Thank you Tasjaana Lee for inspiring me to put this down on 'paper'.

*To learn more about Project If click here.